Hey.

Its like I'm having my old life bck.

")

Been slacking w bdk2 civics.

Only ytd was the most bored day ever.

They all go club.

Sooo, me sitting at hm.

FYI; i lost my hp.

Sooo, its nt tht i dowan to contct or reply to all

ur texts. Esp Anna bby.

Sowie pls..

She's giving birth ths mnth!!

Hahaha. :)

Can't wait.

Btw, its a boy.

She told me what name she's giving.

But i forget.

He he he.

Wht kind of godmother am i??

Name pn lupe.

hehehe.

Okayla. gtg.

Idk wht else to write about babe.

Takecaree!!

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 2:09 PM

Hey. Ytd i tot of meeting all of my frnds for the lst tm,

but all of thm never pickup my calls.

Joyce sanggup sneakout at 2am jst to spent her

tm w me. Thn we

accidently met

In, Naim, Wan, Taufiq and Aidil.

Thn we lepak2, laugh, kcao2 like hell.

(:

Mish my old life whn I used to lepak w thm.

Thn they asked abt Radin all. Hahaha.

Funny beb.

Ppl, yea.. I'm moving on.

Hahaha.

I tot u were the frnd tht owaes been there for me.

But i realised nw tht ur not.

There cums a point in ur life whn u realised,

who matters, who never did,

who wun anymore and who owaes will.

So i guess i dnt nid to wurry abt ppl frm my

past. Cos i knw, theres a reason why

they didn't make it to my future.

:D

I'm training soon.

Scared.

Healthcare attd.

Whn I came bck, I will

only focus bout my future. :)

Org klw suspect kte, nmpk sah sbb die rase guilty

atas perbuatan yg die pernah lakukan. kn?

hahahaha. (:

Joyce; thanks for everything.

U have been there whn i nid u the most.

U owaes help me out.

Ur my best crime partner. (:

U moving bt.batok soon.

Me, i got to choose between sengkang or sembawang.

Haish.

Okayla, gtg.

I'm save and sound here. (:

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 11:45 AM

Hey. Guess where am i??

Grrr.. cyber cafe.

My lappy rsak. My comp soo the lack.

Soo here i am w my ppl. haha.

Sooo bored sia.

Cnt story too long.

Secretttt. Shhhhss..

(:

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 6:50 PM

I've felt soo hurt when they told me tht
he's still using me.
I have love him like hell.
But this is how u treat me.
Now, I'll jst follow the flow.
Jst ikt jek rentak u kay?

A new ME.
A new Environment.
A new World.
AND
A new LIFE.
(:

Joyce, Lilly, Wanie,
i'm sowie to haf dissappointed u.
But this is my decision to be like this.
And yea, my family will not take this blow.
I know u guys were in shock.
And i understand tht it took time for u guys
to accept the New ME.
And let kip this away from Nasir first.
He will sure be in shock.

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 1:28 PM

Babe. Guess wht?
They were nw frnds at tagged.
Maken rpat kn?
I knw. And he featured her too. (:
I viewed her profile jst nw.
She unfeatured me oredi.
Weird kn? It supposed to be me who
unfeatured her cos of wht she had done.
Ni vice-versa plak.
Weird.
I wnt to unfeatured her oso i dnt haf the heart.
She oredi done tht. Haha. Claps for u.
And ppl, wht u do if u knw tht person is angry w u?
Apologise kan? But till now, she didn't.

I knw she got the heart to help me w kotai.
But if she got brain, she shud haf think.
Why Arwah Hafiz called her lickers?
Becos of the same reason. She wnted to help him and aishah.
Untill she kena tendang out of the grps.
Nw, she did it once more.
Dumb.
Her own lovelife cnt be settle, wnt to help others?
Forget it la.
I guess nw, u knw him better thn me.
It hurts u knw?
He told u everythng but nt me.
Nehmind.
K A R M A beb.
(:
If this doesn't end, i'm giving up soon.

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 12:55 PM

I'm very fcking sad.
And crying ryte nw.
Why have my life been so rough?
I try to chnge. Trying to be nice to ppl.
Trying to be gud. But ths is wht I get.
Wanie told Kotai everythng.
I knw everyone was on my side lgy2 anna and joyce. But i'm sowie. I had to let the gud one go. ): Nasir, I'm sowie. Iloveyou.
I never disturb her life sia. Why did she did to mine?
Well atleast I lost my love, my hubby, my heart, my soul.
But she lost more. She lost her family. Her sisterhood and yes, her SISTER.

Love, I'm sowie too. I didn't play w ur heart.
I really love u. I really do.
Ur the best guy i ever had. And i cnt forget u till nw. I told tht i'm moving on. But i told u too tht i'm a liar. (:
Love.. U knw hw much it hurts when i realised it could nvr werk between us?
Theres owaes tht one person trying to break us apart. AND ILOVEYOUTOO.
Swear I do love. I swear.
I tried to move on alot of tm but u knw urself, i'm coming bck to u.
Nw tht u choose to believe others more, thn nehmind. Thank youu for everything love.

And nw I knw why Arwah Hafiz really dnt like me mix w her. (:
U r ryte Arwah Hafiz.
A lickers will owaes be a lickers.
And yes, ur damn ryte,
pantat die da terlalu besar untk dicover.

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 9:17 PM

Ppl, I'm currently at hm w Joyce.
We p*** and talked alot.
We sort alot of things.
We talked and story abt our past tm.
And we cried. ):
Trust us. Hahaha.

We talked abt hw we used to
ton everyday, drink everyday
and dnt care abt our parents feeling.
Hw bad are we?
Haish. We really am sowie.
We want to change to a better person
but, when we think abt our past,
hw dirty we are, hw rebellious we are
and so on, we just cnt.
We dnt knw why.
Our past kips reminding tht
we dnt deserve chance,
we dnt deserve to be treated nicely,
we dnt deserve to b born actually.
Pity our parents got daughter like us.
Haish.
Sowie mom, dad. Ily.
Eventhough u forgave wht i've done,
me myself cnt forgive my ownself.
Because in life, there is a choice.
And i'm the one who choose ths path.
Idk hw to tell u everything abt me tht
u dnt knw one day.
I'm sowie to haf hurt u and nt being like
ur other kids. I'm jst diffrnt.
I'm sowie if i ever made u wurry by
nt coming hm everyday.
I'm sowie for nt eating ur cooking and nt talking to u.
I'm sowie tht i, as ur daughter, had dissapoint u.
And i knw, i'm ur biggest dissapointment.
I've changed alot. I knw.
Alot of ppl told me.
They left me cause i change.
Kn BFFTE? (:
Lilly and yg laen oso ckp.
I wnt to chnge to the old Jana bck.
Jana before 8-teen yrs old.
But... Idk how to.
And I cnt remember wht i am last tm.
Its been 7mnths i became like ths.
I nid ur support ppl.
Make me remember the old me.


Joyce tga bbl otp w her frnds.
Idk wht they talk.
They talk in chinese. Pfftt.
Before I forget, we oso talked abt
Arwah Hafiz.
Whn new ppl came into my life,
the close one will owaes said,
"maybe, his Apish replacement".
And i tried to believe.
Fazli kotai...
His nt.
Thn comes Dd, his nt too.
Thn nw... Nasir...
His nt.
He is my bestfriend but...
noone cn replace Apish.
He's jst difrnt.
His face, smell, attitude and way.
Noone cn b him.
And i'm fckng sure,
noone cn lyn me like he does.
Noone cn takecaree of me like he did.
Noone cn attract mom, dad and sis love and care.
Haish. He was the bestest bestfriend.
I give a name, BFFTE(BestFriendForeverTillEternity.)
Yea, I thnk, he the only one.
I owaes said I wnted to lastlong till our last breath.
Yes, until his last breath. And i'm waiting for mine.
One day. We'll meet again.

Nw i knw why God wnt to seperate us for the past 3mnths
before u go.
God wnt me to b independent.
Lyn myself. Takecaree of myself.
And dnt be a bitch.
U left me cause of ths stpd reason.
Because I did smthng stpd.
I'm sowie.
I hope wherever u are, u will owaes smile.
RIP MUHD HAFIZ BIN JAFREELI.
Till nw, still missing u. (:



I'm currently damn angry w Wanie.
Ape sak hak kao nk kol Fazli and tnyr die aku ngan die tk???
Kao mane pey besar sak???
Org klw kasi alasan, mknenye... tknk lpak ngan kao!!
Pham???!!
Tkyah nk kol2 org luwa. Ade reti tk??
Skrg la kn,
I dnt fckng care la if our 6yrs frnshp went dwn the drain.
Da fedup ar ngan kao.
Buto. Aku tk pernah sak ganggu idop kao.
Aku tlg lgy adela.
Thnks ehh.

♥so break my heart for the final time
@ 9:16 AM